Sometimes it is very hard to practice what I “preach,” be
kind and loving, treat others with empathy and compassion, and pray for your “enemy.”
I find that I am disappointed and hurt
in the action or lack of action from a person that I consider a friend. That disappointment
and hurt has made me feel angry toward this person. I hate feeling this way. My
default is to just cut this person out of my life. That way I will no longer be
hurt by them. I do not like my feelings being hurt. Not many people do. I have
matured in many ways, but this is one area of my life that I have not. I just
want to hit that handy little unfriend button that Facebook has made so easily available.
The question is, why don’t I? Will they ever know that I did? Perhaps. Perhaps
not. I really want to be that childish; save myself from the pain. I also want
to send them a message and ask them what the hell is wrong with them? Then I do
this whole did I do something wrong? Did I hurt their feelings? Feeling guilty
for imagined things is very stupid. And stupid happens. The truth is people are
careless and cruel. Sometimes they are very aware of their actions, and other
times they are too self-absorbed to notice that they are causing damage. Either
way, the root cause is self-centeredness. I know that I am need of forgiveness, for I
have been guilty of hurting feelings. Praise God I am not the person that I was
7 years ago. The reality is I need to let it go and let God be God and do what
only He can do. Perhaps sometimes there are “friendships” that
just are not meant to be friendships. I am thankful for those that I can call
friend. I am also thankful that those that I call “friend” will not know the
difference because of the grace of God.
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